Yes, it's been a rough few weeks ... couple of months, really ... and not only for the obvious reasons.
First off, I'm fine, everyone in my immediate circle is fine. But during Christmas break, and for some time after that, I had to deal with a close family member contracting COVID-19 from another family member. I don't want to go into all the details here, other than to say it was exhausting and difficult. But the close family member is also fine now, thank goodness, despite being in a position of extreme susceptibility due to their health.
I also had to deal with work coming back into session after the break, something where I had to scramble to keep various plates spinning, and a bunch of other stuff not worth going on about in public since it has only transitory importance anyway.
As you can imagine, I haven't gotten much done creatively. Well ... that's not entirely true. I did get a fair amount done, but all of it was planning or organization. But not much in terms of words-on-paper. I simply didn't have the wherewithal to do it, and before long I realized that was in part due to me reaching a point in my work where I had to stop, reassess, rewind, and begin what amounted to another draft.
The other oxygen-siphoning elephant in the room was, of course, Trump's attempted coup, for which no hell hot enough exists in which to roast him and everyone who aided and abetted (and continues to do so). I originally wrote some false-start posts about it all, then deleted them, because most of what came out of my fingers was nothing you haven't heard by now. Democracy is a verb, not a noun, and is something that has to be actively protected instead of just passively savored. And that's something many of us already knew, but were having trouble getting others to believe until the floorboards rotted right out from under them.
Anyway, rather than further gas off about that, I'm going to point you to a number of resources you might want to look into if you want to do more than bite your nails:
I may have more to say about the actual events later. I'm happy we got rid of Trump and brought in Biden, a man of decency and experience who has already done more for us before he was even in office than Trump did in the entire time he squatted there.
But right now, I imagine you could use as much a break from it as I do. Life's been deferred for too long, and I'm trying not to let this lay me out as fiercely as it ought.
I'm just glad I never took up drinking.
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